Discussing a couple in the rpg with my boyfriend.
Me: “Is the relationship mostly physical, is she giving up on love?”
Him: “I’d venture it’s mostly physical. As I told you before, he’s a villain.”
Me: “Don’t mean they can’t love..
Hitler loved Eva.”
Him: Too bad neither of them are around to confirm or deny these allegations!
Me: Pshaw, ask SSPirate.
If someone knows about Hitler and Eva’s relationship, it’s the hot Canadian chick that draws Hitler in maid outfits.
…I am actually so serious.”
I’m scared of being too optimistic about my relationship.
Deep down, I think it’s neat… a really good relationship, and if I might say so myself, special. Everything I always see from everyone around me makes me think my relationship is very different to other people’s relationships… (I know I know I’m such a special snowflake, this is borderline an unapologetic “I’m not like other girls teehee” post)
I’ve never told anyone anything like this, cause, well, I’d be a douche… But also because I’m afraid to even admit to myself how much I like my relationship, how special and most of all, how strong I feel it is.
I constantly tell myself in my head that I’ve got to stay humble, I’m deathly afraid of jinxing it. Anytime I think anything along the lines of us not being ‘the usual couple’, my mind is transported to reading old friends statuses of people I’ve known just being so head over heals for each other, and happy, and everything is just “the pinnacle of perfection and everything a relationship should be” in their relationship and they LOVE THEM SO MUCH. And a week later a surplus of angst angry posts about betrayal, trust issues, and how much they now realize they hate this person they thought they knew.
One thing a friend told me a lot whenever I’d get defensive about my relationship (reason I got defensive is because she simply didn’t believe in LDR’s and wanted me to date “for real” as she put it and kept trying to get me to meet guys and I’d promptly get really angry and defensive, but that’s another story) she’d always tell me “You never stop getting to know a person.”
In the context that she meant it was when she’d incredulously ask me if I REALLY think he isn’t cheating on me, and I’d tell her yeah. Basically, that I am but a naive little girl that doesn’t know better, that she knew MY best friend of 8 years better than I did, because “boys will be boys”, and I’m just stupid, young, and wearing rose colored glasses.
She was convinced I’d have a rude awakening one day and “see she was right”. In that context, I can’t agree with her.
Otherwise, I completely agree with that line, you never stop getting to know someone… But that isn’t a bad thing.
I love getting to know him, I know people change, he isn’t the kid I met 8 years ago, I’m not the same girl he met 8 years ago. so yes, we’ve both changed, a lot, and we never stop getting to know each other. One thing I can tell you is that up until now, thankfully, we have grown in ways that continue to compliment each other, like puzzle pieces just falling into place.
No, I can’t tell you if it will always be like this, but it has for 8 years already… That’s why I sometimes feel cocky about my relationship, that’s why I really do feel it is different, and special(at least to me). Because if it continues this way until the day one of us dies, it would proven to me without a single doubt that it WAS as special as I as a naive 21 year old felt deep down it was.
Until then, I have to stay humble, lest I become the girl that within a week will be posting angsty messages of broken hearts and humiliating myself, worse yet, proving I WAS just a naive little girl…
Anyway, that’s that for my newest LDR post, I know I haven’t made on in centuries!
Oh, you know, just some sexy talk with my boyfriend.
Xoxo
A sense of humour can make everything better. Sex isn’t like it is in the movies or in porn. There will be strange and weird and awkward sounds, there might be a silly interruption like the cat or a kid… you might knock heads or trip getting undressed. Sex is funny, foreplay is funny and sometimes you need to just laugh. It will keep things from getting awkward! If you take sex too seriously you aren’t truly enjoying it!
Not to mention a sense of humour can be really sexy no matter what your gender identity is!
Probably the best post I’ve seen in a long time about sex.
I mean, anyone can have passion
but the best sex is the kind where you and your partner can laugh and kid around and be silly.
All (5) times I’ve had sex so far, it’s been like this, the moment my partner got his penis in me I LITERALLY high fived him and we laughed, a lot. He knows I’m a nervous laugher, and I was just so excited when it didn’t hurt like most my gal friends had told me it would, that I just laughed, and smiled, and most of the times after when we fooled around, I still laugh a lot, and I make him laugh, too, it’s just something I do when I’m nervous since I’m still so inexperienced. It really makes things easier, more enjoyable than awkward silence, I’d say.
(via emergencycocktail)
For the past few days I’ve been worried out of my mind about something. The love of my life wants to visit me next month. Now this in itself is wonderful, nearly 10 years of speaking with her, growing close to her, sharing good times and bad with her. The problem comes in how much I’ve told my…
Day 9: Favorite thing she/he has given you?
Day 10: Favorite thing about him/her?
Well my favorite thing shes given me is 10 years of ability to stretch my creativity while enjoying her companionship. If there was one person that I would never tire of its her
My favorite thing about her is her ability to find wonder in even insignificant things. The things I find small, uninteresting, and even aggravating she can find wonderful, surprising or even terrifying.
LMAO <3 the second part made me sound like a retarded puppy. D:
I can legally drink in my country, the age is 18
When I do to the states I’ll have to wait until NEXT YEAR to be able to legally drink again!
Ahhhh what the hell D:
Mostly skype/or msn all day
Sometimes on the phone. But you know, calls from Costa Rica to Philly are everything but cheap, so they usually last a minute.
Day 6: What is the most random thing you know about him/her? and vice versa
hmm…thats a good question, I’d have to say its her seething hatred of pancakes thats her most random trait…and mine….Well she knows about a very strange dream I had involving monster-girls, a train, and a car that eats people.
Oh that one with the futa bunny girl? ;D
Que Mean Girls gif. image of Lindsay Lohan saying that - I’m too lazy to look for it.
The other day I was talking to Dre, I realized I was going about this the wrong way, I’m like, focused on losing weight before I go to the states… but, why?
I know he loves me just the way I am ._. and sure, I wanna lose weight cause I’d like to feel better about myself, and, furthermore, to cure my PCOS (poly-cystic Ovary syndrome) But here’s the thing… who the hell ever said I couldn’t continue to lose weight once I get to the states?
On other news, we’re getting closer to deciding a date, we’re thinking February, which I don’t mind, I hope it’s snowing… <3
Perhaps that he adores clicky keyboards, cause when he types really fast they make him feel like he’s in a hacker movie.
Yeah, I’ll go with that one. XD
OH! missed the vice versa part…
Maybe that he knows I’ve kidnapped my neighbors cat from time to time for a few hours when they’re not home, cause their boy cat and my girl cat get along really well…Seriously, it’s really cute (and she’s spayed, so it’s not cause she’s in heat, I don’t get their mutual fascination. XD)
There’s too many things to choose from
I went to get my passport, so here’s a update!
Mom told me the wrong date when we scheduled the appointment online, so I happened to make the appointment today, the day mom went off to the beach with my sisters (I have to stay to watch my sister’s pets, baw D: )
So in the morning we all got ready and jumped in the car and headed to the capitol, the drive took around 40 minutes, we got there at 9:-something- while the appointment was at 10:00, I was so afraid we’d get there LATE and we got there super early. XD
So I went in with mom, filled out the form, we paid(well, SHE paid) and we were out of there, so easy and quick.
The most tedious part of it all is that, in the morning I was rather nervous (you see, this is a big deal, it’s literally another step closer to meeting this ONE GUY I happen to be madly in love with, who I’ve talked to and been best friends with for years. So, yeah, kind of a big deal. LOL
So in the morning I took two Dramamine, you know, car sickness pills, as I was nervous I was even more prone to throwing up my pumpkin muffin on the drive there, something I didn’t want happening, and the drive there went smoothly… however, Dramamine makes me …incredibly drowsy.. >.< on the drive from the embassy to the bus stop, I was already slurring lol
On the bus ride from the capitol to my town, I nearly laid my head on the shoulder of the woman next to me, in fact when I was sitting next to her I started wondering if I got on the right bus ._.;
Then, at the bus stop waiting for the bus that gets me home, I seriously thought I was gonna nod off, it was such POTENT SLEEPYNESS in that wonderful warm sunny day (it was just warm and sunny enough to make me wanna feel all comfy, not beaming hotness or anything) that I got on the bus that leaves me 1km from my house, which I have to walk uphill. I took that one cause I knew I couldn’t fall asleep while I walked. Lol. >.< If I had waited for the other bus I would have curled up and fallen asleep at the bus stop, haaah.
So! THAT HAPPENED. :D
My passport book will be ready within a week-to-a-week and a half.
The feeling of waking up and being able to talk to her immediately tends to give me a happy feeling that lasts through the day, all in all whenever I can I feel like I’m already half way to a day that cant be ruined. I know that when I can wake up with her actually in my arms that I’ll have found the other half.
QnQ <3
5 days without fail…though I kinda cheated yesterday by letting her answer for me.
Day 5: How long have you been together?
Well, that’s a bit of a complex question, for the past 7(technically 8 now if we’re going by the start of the year) years we’ve probably hit every point of the spectrum of…
Ahaha complex question is complex. D:
When are we even supposed to celebrate anniversaries!? Ahhh~ I have no cluuue
And my heart is 2143 miles away - My name is Natalie, I was born February 26, 1992, from the time I was 13 I have talked to my current boyfriend over the internet, and it took quite a few years, but March 1st 2012 I finally got to meet him in person. This blog began as a way for me to talk about and document my experience with my Long Distance Relationship, but now it transformed into ...well, simply my blog, where I put anything I want on it :P If you are here specifically for what I write on my LDR, you will find it in the link specified to it, there is also a link on fitness as I'm currently trying to change my life style and get fit, as well as a few other things... I hope you enjoy!
